twirling my hair with my INDEX finger

Musical production is over.
It’s great for a gathering of different dancers for a musical.

it’s tiring to smile.

anyway, my choreography was complimented by zaini.
yes. euphoric.
he asked for a chance of us performing my choreo on 24th dec at takashimaya.
pretty cute and interesting.

down with choreo and musical.

now flame awards- masquerade
fyp
ce
and school.
well. i’m not alone, but i’m alone.

timelessness was depict by the spaces seen in the images, having spaces in the surrounding, repeating images, spaces for people to imaging. But then there may be a focus, but such a fine line to allow people to lose the focus too.

be it with focus or without focus it’s intentional by the professionals.

timelessness in life, shown by timeless emotion with time passing by through daily routines. Time is ticking really slowly, there may be a focus of an emotion, but it’s just a fine line to being lost too.

be it focus or without focus, it’s not really intentional for the young.

Like i said, time stopped at the wrong moment.
performances after performances, the same tv programmes, the same songs from the cellphone, the empty conversations with the family, the no replies from the cell phones and emails.
it seems that time is ticking, there should be some movement in between these activities, but everything remains akwardly calm. It kinda scares me, esp. when it’s not the time to be feeling like this.
I seem to be leaving the world.

evaporating.

i’m too young for love songs, too silly to not have know the meaning between the lines.

educate me on the beauty of timelessness moments (now).

eh. people please reply. i’ve got not much time.
thanks.

you made me feel that im nothing better than thrash.
It makes me angry when I realised you don’t fucking need me at all.
SO i was a fool
and you’re just a lousy person.

Indeed you always gave your best, gave your best for yourself, so that compliments your selfishness.
you always do.

Well, realistically, in life you do have to be selfish.

4 major performances.
2 today and 2 tomorrow.
all i need was a good wakeup call from my boyfriend, early in the morning to break up with me.
Thanks.

it seems that i’m fine.

seems that is.

Barney gets so excited singing about shapes.
That really reflect on life.

I wanna be a purple dinosaur.

A BIG PURPLE DINOSAUR

I wish we could go on a trip i wish we could talk all night i wish we could go bbq go eat cakes go watch movies talk about different topics and entertain ourselves with silence and houseflies.

i wish there were time.

i miss the girls so much.

i miss every single bit of them. never wanna distance, it’s been more than a year since i’ve met up with the whole clique. blame it on me. I’m sad.

I love this girls, and secondary school life wouldn’t be any better without them.
so sorry if i’ve missed that outing, was busy.

then, busy shouldn’t be the excuse already, should it?

Please let’s go eat prata and cakes.
to huiling, fiona, sockhoon and abbie.

u can try u can try u can try

BUT IT WILL NEVER DIE

Everyone need hugs and kisses, since we’re babies.

Make it a habit to kiss and hug.

I need movies, k box, good dinner and seafood too.

let me spell it.

h e a r t b r e a k

SOME UNGLAM MOMENTS

I can’t deny, but indeed I am disappointed. Disappointed with the people who I really want to see on my performance. Maybe you guys never know, everytime the message of asking you to come, it’s really my deep down intention to ask you to come and support me. Because all i really wanted to do, is to perform to my love one. I’m so sorry if you guys don’t like dancing or don’t appreciate what i’m doing. But I really want to just perform for you all. Maybe one day, if i still have the chance …

It’s like. So much of loving something, loving this hobby, and you wanna talk about it, share it, flaunt it. Actually really just behave like a girl and share what you really love to the people you love and make them see your passion in it. This concert, let’s hope not my last.

It was a blast, despite the fall on stage. I am happy, enjoyed and i performed. I am glad that people like it. That my audience reacted to it positively. I really really appreciate each and everyone of you who came down to support. I am really glad, you guys are the reason that i trained so hard everyday til 10 pm, bleeding blisters, knee blueblacks, toes sprained, torn and tattered ballet shoes. It’s all because I wanna perform to you guys. It’s not about me, It’s about you guys that I danced for. And for those who i’ve yet to dance for, i’ll look forward and still pursue this dream to the very day.

I can’t explain how inlove I am with dancing. I’ve grew, I’ve learned. Never i’ll give up dancing. It’s like my soul, that’s keeping me alive. So eager to move myself in this body language and expression. Never wanna stop. Keeping it going despite the pain, the aches and the cost of it. I just wanna dance. That’s how I fell inlove with it, and hard to fall out of it.

Here are some snaps from the performance!

I love RP modern dancers, the one that have left, stayed, and coming back.
It’s they who nurture who I am to date. It’s them who made me fell in love with dance.
and no regrets ever. this lovely bunch of sexy, determine, smart dancers.

MANY MANY LOVE.

tonight is the night for the performance.
the performance i long waiting for, only one night with full house audiences. I can’t be more delighted than that.
THinking of it as a profession, to perform, to tell a story, to say something with my body movements and expressions. CHoreography to show magnificent enjoyment in dance. It’s not just about having fun, it’s about dancing, being a performer, showing a professional side of a performer to perform. SO focus, don’t forget any of the rehearsals in the studios, the lines, the energy, the clean lines, th techniques, the blockings, then incorporate the energy, the expressions, but don’t drift off.
Focus, warm up and perform professionally.

I’m good to go.

Tonight dancing to a piece call your highness purple, a tribute to the musician Prince. WIth different emotions from craziness, sadness, sexiness and anger to be seen in the choreography. amazing costumes and stage lightings. crazy choreography, and definitely a choreo to kill.

everytime when i’m in the back stage i remember the scene from billy elliot. Played by adam cooper, which is also my best time favourite dancing idol. It reflects, kinda put me in the mood to go out and give it. oh ya. and ill remember to kiss the stage before i perform too.

Here’s for me to my idol.