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Faults are like boomerangs.
If you found yours, don’t try to dig it further and prove yourself wrong, just accept it and take it in.
Because it will in the end still come back to you. It’s either the matter of time, or how much more damage you would get when you delay it further.
faults are just like boomerangs.
not meeting up to these expectations – my fault
not responsible enough – my fault
not wanting to do the things you guys want – my fault
not co-operatvie enough – my fault
not spending much time – my fault
you feel that you’re more impt than what i am doing – my fault
stop digging it as i say.
I meant all these sacarstically, ya in the end it will still come back to me, i know.
but fuck it.
I have enough.
i’m not stress you see, i just have enough of myself for not being able to please you, you, you and you.
So sorry. I apologized. I know it’s not sincere enough.
I’ll get the roseS.
No, not a bunch for you.
But one for everyone.
I do wonder how many i need to get then.
it’s menses, menses.
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HOHO, recieved this little gift from Bryan.
WEeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
Happy till i’ll wet my pants.
Not just yet. :p
Super happy!
and past updates,
Sketches for Baby Seth’s first month 
And cookies for my love one.
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Was chatting with Jeremy.
Made me realise life’s too short to be lazy.
At least that’s what i adviced him.
well, it’s true isn’t it?
maxi dress and life.
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Liu Peiying
I have a painful corn
teeth that need to be fix
and FATS
and many undone study business.
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1. LOOK FOR A JOB, INCOME
2. FINISH PP
3. FINISH FYP 1
4. EXCEL FOR SEM 1 YR 3
5. DANCE
EXCEL EXCEL EXCEL
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If i were to associate someone to an angel, it would be her…
Farewell my beloved cousin, who taught me to be strong and whom have inspired me with stories of her life.
God have took you to somewhere he would call home, and we would call it heaven.
Some place where you belong, no pain, no sufferings and purely just complete peace and happiness.
Rest in peace.
hakuryu@gmail.com says:
eh, free now?
xwiingsx@hotmail.com says:
hmmm sorta
xwiingsx@hotmail.com says:
why?
hakuryu@gmail.com says:
god your nick’s so in the way
xwiingsx@hotmail.com says:
-.-
hakuryu@gmail.com says:
lol
xwiingsx@hotmail.com says:
my cousin passed away
xwiingsx@hotmail.com says:
urgh
hakuryu@gmail.com says:
wanted suggestions for a meet up… but erm.. i guess you do have more pressing matters
hakuryu@gmail.com says:
how’re you taking it? =/
xwiingsx@hotmail.com says:
hmmmm
xwiingsx@hotmail.com says:
she’s jus like an angel that’s how i can say it
xwiingsx@hotmail.com says:
i see this glow on her funeral photo, it’s as though it’s telling us that finally she rest in peace
xwiingsx@hotmail.com says:
she have been suffering since young, entering in and out of hospital with major and minor operations
xwiingsx@hotmail.com says:
she inserted a pump in to her heart which cause her extreme pain
xwiingsx@hotmail.com says:
she screamed to her mum, saying that she WILL survive and fought to the end of this ordeal.
xwiingsx@hotmail.com says:
but hrs after that, she gave up
xwiingsx@hotmail.com says:
well. when they have to go, they have to go.
xwiingsx@hotmail.com says:
it’s peace i guess, perhaps she wopuld still be suffering if she’s still ard.
xwiingsx@hotmail.com says:
an angel indeed
xwiingsx@hotmail.com says:
really.
hakuryu@gmail.com says:
such strength
xwiingsx@hotmail.com says:
ya. she have been very very very strong
xwiingsx@hotmail.com says:
and she is so young. at the age of 28, haven’t dated yet. sometimes she still kid that she would go to singapore dating website to look for a partner
xwiingsx@hotmail.com says:
she is smart, graduate with second class honours and became a pharmist
xwiingsx@hotmail.com says:
working in a place where she hates, helping people who are similar to her, people who go through those ordeal
xwiingsx@hotmail.com says:
a very dilligent and smart girl who cares abt the family.
xwiingsx@hotmail.com says:
a lot. and love her parents and sibling.
hakuryu@gmail.com says:
i see
xwiingsx@hotmail.com says:
seriously ust angel, completely
hakuryu@gmail.com says:
my prayers are with her
hakuryu@gmail.com says:
don’t feel too down yeah?
xwiingsx@hotmail.com says:
hahha i’m alright
xwiingsx@hotmail.com says:
but the cremate would be a painful one as usal i guess
xwiingsx@hotmail.com says:
but now the wake it’s just contains wonderful memories of her.
hakuryu@gmail.com says:
i see
xwiingsx@hotmail.com says:
and it’s a very pleasent one, she’s catholic btw. and it’s a very pleasent funeral, unlike those chantings and stuffs
hakuryu@gmail.com says:
hey, i find those funerals pleasent as well
hakuryu@gmail.com says:
lol
hakuryu@gmail.com says:
but it sounds like a pretty funeral, fit for an angel
xwiingsx@hotmail.com says:
ya.
xwiingsx@hotmail.com says:
i’m gonna just blog abt this whole conver
xwiingsx@hotmail.com says:
just nice as what i wanna typed abt
hakuryu@gmail.com says:
sure
xwiingsx@hotmail.com says:
too lazy, and i have to go get ready to head down to the funeral again
hakuryu@gmail.com says:
i see, okay then
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I miss you girls.
Please hang out soon!
I’ve quit my job
But still Dancing
Currently having my holidays.
And I want you all to meet somebody new:)
CALL ME
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I somehow see dust on this blog.
Valentine’s Day
3 Guys
My Buddy
My EX Drinking partner
My Boyfriend
Lovely.
Jonathan blamed me for dating too many guys on valentine.
and Louis said i’m always mean to him
Bryan said i’m bad to Louis
well…
The 3 of them should start dating each other.
don’t you agree?
finally the heart calmed and settled down.
It felt as though the breeze is blowing against my face and tangling that smooth hair of mine.
but i don’t care, it felt as though it was supposed to be that way, the hair were supposed to be tangled.
There i’m smiling, i can’t see if it’s day or night.
It doesn’t seems to matter anyway.
Oddly, I would only beg for a sense of freedom and to maintain this state of peace in my mind.
Am i afraid? I think I am
Happy belated Valentine.
I love my man
and the 2 best mans (:
I’m naive and foolish.
I fall in love easily.
Sometimes i even ask myself what’s love?
I tends to go gaga too much.
It’s just like a sweet, i thought.
But it’s not.
There’s some love that i regretted so much, that i would even kill myself if i kept thinking about the past.
I nearly die.
It was that close.
I’ve never forgive myself for making those mistakes, it’s so sad that i would cry for 1 whole year and i’ll still never get over it. Till I feel that there’s totally no meaning for me to live in this world anymore.
Never would i want to be like that again, i tell myself.
Thus, I ran away.
But how far can i run?
All my dreams and hopes were trashed.
I never ever dare to dream anymore, i never ever dare to smile and say it’s okay.
Because to myself, i know it’s totally not okay.
SO what if i waited in MSN till late nights?
So what if i tried to continue the conversation?
It’s either i don’t deserve it or it would be the same old mistake again.
Just like a child, love’s just like a sweet.
Never would i know that it would dirty my mouth and cause my teeth to decay that they wouldn’t appear nice anymore.
I love jonathan. He is the only one who will cane me back to reality to stop taking those sweets.
I can’t believe how would i be living if it’s not for him.
Life’s short.
I seriously like this song.
“ It’s not everday
that i find a person quite like you
perfect every way
i finally found the nerve to confess that it’s you – that i want
i don’t care if i act a fool
i would damn near beg for you !
put aside, all my pride
so don’t keep me hanging here
cause this girl is falling stupid for you..
stupid for you..the proper thing to do
is for me to act like a lady and wait
for you to make the first move
but i don’t think you’re getting the point
that it’s you – that i want
i don’t care if i act a fool
i would damn near beg for you
put aside, all my pride
so don’t keep me waiting here
cause this girl is falling stupid for you!
oh, oh stupid for youwhy’s it always feel like i am
chasing love when nothing’s there
and here i go just making the same mistake…
i’ve fallen stupid for you.. “
But is there someplace far away
Some place where all is clear
Easy to start over with the ones you hold so dear or are you left to wonder
All alone eternally
This isn’t how it’s really meant to be
No
It isn’t how it’s really meant to be
Well they say that love is in the air
But never is it clear how to pull it close and make it stay
Butterflies are free to fly and so they fly away
And I’m left to carry on and wonder why
Even through it all I’m always on your side
- i’m still unsure
Lucky it’s not infamous.
I feel so like a nobody.
Senario:
Stranger: *taps me on the shoulder* Can I dance with you?
Me: oh.. okay sure (:
after a few minutes of drifting away…
Friend: Is he *Alfred?
Me: how do you know?!
Friend: OH, I’ve seen his blog before, he;s *Mary’s friend.
And obviously Mary is a popular girl.
And alfred is under one of those small group of links that she have on her blog.
wow.
*I have to blog about this, i’m itching*
*Alfred: DO you know what song this is?
Me: er… no
*Alfred: Tattoo by Jordin Sparks
*Alfred started lip-sync-ing.
(Super sincere, cute and sweet, while lip sync-ing)
Weird chemistry though.
Senario:
Me: He asked if my boyfriend is here, or he will be dead.
Friend: You should tell him that your boyfriend is at home sleeping
Senario 2:
*Alfred: (2nd time asking) Your boyfriend is really not here right?
Friend: Nope, he’s not
*Alfred: He’s at home sleeping right?
Hmmmm. My friend should took the dance instead.
I bet *Alfred wouldn’t mind. (wink at friend)
LOL.
Only peeps who are there last night would understand.(:
