twirling my hair with my INDEX finger

what if death walks towards you and ask for your hand?
I’ll give it to him.

no. no relationships and affection with death. Neither am i satanic. But maybe that’s how humans behave when they are left with no clue on how to live on and carry on surviving. Maybe that’s what humans would do when they’ve lost their identity.

What would have made you put death as a option to your choices?

What would you do if you already see death as the most positive choice out of all?

tell me. maybe it’s me not able to take stress. tell me that i am dying and i have the courage to do that so i dun have to feel, worry and trouble. Tell me i do not have to take up this responsibilities that i am not responsible for. Prove it to me that it’s that way and i will live without guilt for the rest of my life. tell me …

and you know what? the fucking list will just go forever.

And people would come telling you and asking you what’s wrong, but many do not know that the problems lies with them. And i see no point making other people becoming like this state of mine too.

Yeah. Freak out.

Liu Peiying wants to die.

Howdy, wordpress.

My heart aches and flashes of past delights.

CLose your eyes, I’ll take your hand and walk you back where we’ve met 6 years back.
The field, the teachers screaming, we in our pe attires. Sleepless nights in the hall.
THere goes the camp. Prisoners clothes and ugly neoprints, crappy hair and awesome food.
Scary dogs of yours to i love your dogs.
Piano session at your place, your generous care and concern.

Suddenly, I miss you that much.

How much?

SO BLOODY FUCKING MUCH.

OH MAN!

I dun know what’s this song abt, but the song is just so nice la. Thanks to yangzhao’s old playlist.
Waha.

HAHAHAHHA.

i just can’t stop laughing about that.

u can’t draw sadness well enough, if u ain’t sad.

u can’t laugh if u ain’t happy too.

忘了是怎麼開始　也許就是對你　有一種感覺
忽然間發現自己　已深深愛上你　真的很簡單

愛的地暗天黑都已無所謂　是是非非無法抉擇　喔~~
沒有後悔為愛日夜去跟隨　那個瘋狂的人是我　喔~~

I LOVE U 無法不愛你 BABY 說你也愛我
I LOVE U 永遠不願意 BABY 失去你

不可能更快樂　只要能在一起　做什麼都可以
雖然　世界變個不停　用最真誠的心　讓愛變的簡單

I LOVE U 一直在這裡　BABY　一直在愛你 Oh ya~
I LOVE U　(yes I do)　永遠都不放棄　這愛你的權利
如果你還有一些困惑 Oh No 請貼著我的心傾聽
聽我說著　愛你 (yes I do) 我愛你

愛你的權利…

夜已深
还有什麽人
让你这样醒着数伤痕
为何临睡前会想要留一盏灯
你若不肯说
我就不问
只是你现在不得不承认
爱情有时候是一种沈沦
让人失望的虽然是恋情本身
但是不要只是因为你是女人
若爱得深
会不能平衡
为情困
折磨了灵魂
该爱就爱
该恨的就恨
要为自己保留几分
女人独有的天真
和温柔的天分
要留给真爱你的人
不管未来多苦多难
有他陪你完成
虽然爱是种责任
给要给得完整
有时爱美在无法永恒
爱有多销魂
就有多伤人
你若勇敢爱了就要勇敢分
夜已深
还有什麽人
让你这样醒着数伤痕
为何临睡前会想要留一盏灯
你若不肯说
我就不问
(music)
若爱得深
会不能平衡
为情困
折磨了灵魂
该爱就爱
该恨的就恨
要为自己保留几分
女人独有的天真
和温柔的天分
要留给真爱你的人
不管未来多苦多难
有他陪你完成
虽然爱是种责任
给要给得完整
有时爱美在无法永恒
爱有多销魂
就有多伤人
你若勇敢爱了就要勇敢分
女人独有的天真
和温柔的天分
要留给真爱你的人
不管未来多苦多难
有他陪你完成
虽然爱是种责任
给要给得完整
有时爱美在无法永恒
爱有多销魂
就有多伤人
你若勇敢爱了就要勇敢分
夜已深
还有什麽人
让你这样醒着数伤痕
为何临睡前会想要留一盏灯
你若不肯说
我就不问

生命的伤痕
苦涩寂寞
最难的是面对内心那个脆弱不安的自己
阿妹和你一起勇敢
黑暗中
寂静伸出的双手
冰冷的空气像火
害怕又收手
路太远
谁的眼神能永远
忘了跟你一起走
怎样才会懂
记忆里
爱应该总是温柔
有了这一切
才能不怕黑夜
是我勇敢太久
决定为你一个人而活
不能说出口
那么折磨
勇敢了太久
城市充满短暂的烟火
无处躲
照亮了沉默
明白是寂寞
爱原来寂寞
谁说过
爱会让人不自由
所以你要我等候
换你的追求
有太多
快乐自私做藉口
你让我最后
把心痛当拥有

SHE IS SUPER CUTE.
“how can you not fall in love with a nonya?”

Musical production is over.
It’s great for a gathering of different dancers for a musical.

it’s tiring to smile.

anyway, my choreography was complimented by zaini.
yes. euphoric.
he asked for a chance of us performing my choreo on 24th dec at takashimaya.
pretty cute and interesting.

down with choreo and musical.

now flame awards- masquerade
fyp
ce
and school.
well. i’m not alone, but i’m alone.

timelessness was depict by the spaces seen in the images, having spaces in the surrounding, repeating images, spaces for people to imaging. But then there may be a focus, but such a fine line to allow people to lose the focus too.

be it with focus or without focus it’s intentional by the professionals.

timelessness in life, shown by timeless emotion with time passing by through daily routines. Time is ticking really slowly, there may be a focus of an emotion, but it’s just a fine line to being lost too.

be it focus or without focus, it’s not really intentional for the young.

Like i said, time stopped at the wrong moment.
performances after performances, the same tv programmes, the same songs from the cellphone, the empty conversations with the family, the no replies from the cell phones and emails.
it seems that time is ticking, there should be some movement in between these activities, but everything remains akwardly calm. It kinda scares me, esp. when it’s not the time to be feeling like this.
I seem to be leaving the world.

evaporating.

i’m too young for love songs, too silly to not have know the meaning between the lines.

educate me on the beauty of timelessness moments (now).

eh. people please reply. i’ve got not much time.
thanks.

you made me feel that im nothing better than thrash.
It makes me angry when I realised you don’t fucking need me at all.
SO i was a fool
and you’re just a lousy person.

Indeed you always gave your best, gave your best for yourself, so that compliments your selfishness.
you always do.

Well, realistically, in life you do have to be selfish.

4 major performances.
2 today and 2 tomorrow.
all i need was a good wakeup call from my boyfriend, early in the morning to break up with me.
Thanks.

it seems that i’m fine.

seems that is.